happy new year
happy new year! things are getting busy again for me, i've got an artist alley in like, two weeks and i am nowhere near ready.
i started off my new year by getting sick. i got a pretty bad fever and cough out of nowhere and ive been taking ginger tea, decongestants, and paracetamol for the past few days. my sinuses were so congested i guess i couldn't taste anything for a whole day, i was kind of panicking i got covid again. which extra sucks because nobody else around me wears masks anymore.
that was a lie by the way. i actually started off my new year by coming out to my family. i went up to my mom in tears and for a couple minutes i feel like she was expecting me to tell her something horrible instead of that i was trans. i've been agonizing about how to tell her and what to say and all the possible scenarios and what to do for the past month? maybe two months? because at some point something changed and i just wanted to start T already. it went really well and now i feel kind of silly for worrying at all!
i was *supposed* to get my bloodwork done today actually, but i've still got a low grade fever so. next week it is!
i do feel a bit weird because now i'm not *as* restless or thinking about getting on HRT every waking second but i guess that's because its actually real. i am still really excited and i cant wait to put "💉XX/XX/XXXX" in bio when i finally start (but let's be real. i'm probably gonna start with gel because i am terrified of injections). i only came out to family and a few close friends, just because i think it'd be a little funny to surprise my cis friends if my voice gets deeper.
My god there's so many things i want to do this year (mostly art related). i want to finish the proof of concept of my girlfriend and i's overdue game jam submission so we can finally work on another game we've (she's) been planning on and off for the past few years. i want to design a horse character for lunar new year and develop more of the High Speed Regulation Group cast. i wanna take more commissions and take it more seriously. i wanna finish the cometwatchers' designs so i can make a pinup calendar LOL. i really REALLY want to get into the big all-originals artist alley this year.
i hope i can keep doing sticker mail regularly. the idea of a sticker club also sounds enticing, but there's a lot of planning behind the scenes that i don't know about yet - and i don't think i can fully trust phlpost just yet. it's also pretty unreliable to send things with philippine mail, even registered (ran into some issues with to a friend in the US), and it's also expensive agh. it is really exciting seeing my friends recieve their mail and tell me about it though. i love adding some extra stuff and seeing their reactions when they see the surprises. so fun.
i think i was supposed to write more but i kind of lost my train of thought. after february i wanna do more website stuff and finally move to 11ty so i dont have to update every single page when i want to fix the sidebar. speaking of which there's a broken link to my bluesky AUGHHHHHHHH
once i get through all my deadlines i will be back i hope. see you soon!
hal
